Relief

This post is full of TMI, so if you can't handle it...you might want to skip this post. :0)

Validation, it's a beautiful thing.

Yesterday morning, I was still bleeding so I decided it was time to go see the doctor. I unfortunately couldn't get in with my normal doctor, so I made an appointment with the doctor on call, who is a woman. I was a bit skeptical because I thought I would be hearing yet another, "I don't see anything, can't help you" but this time was different.

I explained the really long story to the doctor and she examined me and said, "Oh wow. Yeah, there is long track of something that burst. It's still bleeding, I can see it." She said, "It's huge, the size of a quarter, and is full of blood. You have been putting pressure on that and that's why you were in so much pain. It's now draining so you are feeling relief and will continue to feel even better as it drains." She prescribed me some antibiotics to prevent infection since it's now an open wound, but it was SO nice hearing "Oh wow, yeah that would cause you a lot of pain." See? I'm not crazy!!!

Once it started draining, my pain level dropped to a 3. It has continued bleeding out over the last two days and now I'm at a 1. It is so nice being able to sleep and walk again without wanting to cry. I think I'm on the other end of this. Thank goodness.

The bad news is that it can very well come back so I'm trying to mentally prepare myself for it happening again. For now, I'm just going to enjoy feeling better, even if it is short lived. They are miserable, but completely harmless so I guess it could always be worse.

So far my summer has been pretty much a bummer, but I'm sure it will improve very soon. Last night I worked on my family yearbook for a long time and I'm so excited about this new tradition. It's going to be so neat seeing years in review when we get older. It's so interesting how you forget some of the good times you experienced, and how happy you were in those moments, but when you put it all out in pictures in order, you realize how great your life really is. It's sad that the negative things can so easily overshadow the positive. I love my family yearbook and I'm really glad I've found this part of my nostalgia again.

In Adam news, I can now SEE him kicking. It's so interesting! I can feel his kicking getting stronger and he's also getting more cramped so now if he kicks hard enough, you can see a little raising of my tummy. He's getting so big, sweet boy! I so cannot wait to meet him!!

It's crazy to think that in 8 more weeks, he will be medically considered full term at 37 weeks. I have so much to do!! I'm hoping he goes to 40 weeks but it's getting real that he could be here sooner, which isn't that far away.

I have another baby shower tomorrow and I'm really excited! The last one was so fun!! My mom has a lot of friends and they are throwing me a shower at Mary Kay. YAY!

So that's where we are. Feeling better, baby is strong and I'm always in need of a nap. Ha. :0)

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  1. Christina TJune 10, 2014 at 1:07 PM

    Ekk! I can't wait to see all the goodies you get at your shower tomorrow. :o) Sounds like fun!

    Glad you are finally feeling better, friend.

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