Our Unexpected Beautiful Life

There are many changes about to take place! 1) We only have one more week of school left before summer! HORRAY!!!! It really is bliss being able to sleep in and do nothing. It's been awhile since I've had a summer off as I've always worked or been in school. It's going to be GLORIOUS! I will be juggling many doctors appointments, finishing Adam's room, completing all my summer work hours and just resting and relaxing. I cannot wait. 2) I have baby showers coming up! One on Monday, one on June 11th and one on June 28th! Although I'm not 100% comfortable being the center of attention, I am very excited to see what my baby boy gets! 3) My body is changing. While I still don't even look that pregnant, which btw is so annoying seeing everyone else's huge bumps at 27 weeks compared to mine, but I have noticed that some things are definitely getting harder. I'm getting more uncomfortable. Baby boy is sitting on my bladder, so I have to go to the bathr...

I have learned something....once you get pregnant, everybody feels that it's now appropriate to tell you what's right and not right about the choices you make in living your life. Somehow, because it's concerning a little person, people think they have that right to suddenly go there. I'll be honest, I'm getting VERY sick of it. I have been gracious and always say "thank you" but newsflash, your brain doesn't leave when you grow a person! I'm still smart and I still research and I will obviously make the best choices I deem fit regarding my child. I've wanted this child more than anything, so why would anyone think that I don't? I am getting emails about why this daycare isn't good, what's wrong with this one, how I should spend ALLLL this extra money for this one, and it's really overwhelming me. They all contradict each other! And the ONLY facility I feel good about? I just got an email about that one saying how terrible i...

Great news! I passed the glucose test with flying colors!!! NO GESTATIONAL DIABETES!  YAY!!! However,  my hemoglobin levels were low,  causing iron deficiency anemia,  so I now have to take iron supplements every day.  That explains why I've been feeling so weak and tired lately!  The iron supplements are a super easy fix and I'm grateful that I'm not diabetic! WOOP!!!!!

Yesterday, I had my glucose test to test for gestational diabetes. I was ordered to eat very high protein, with low carbs and no sugar all day before the test. I felt bad when I went in there because I had very little sleep and all the protein upset my stomach really bad. I knew it would be rough as I always feel like crap the first day I change my diet. I went in after school and they gave me this really gross orange drink that tastes like Sunkist with 3 extra cups of sugar. When I drank the sugar drink, it made me feel even worse as it bombarded my system with sugar. My poor baby started kicking like crazy and then I felt even more woozy. They let me lay down for an hour since I apparently looked pretty white lol, and then when I woke up an hour later, they took my blood and sent off the results to my doctor. Today, I got a call from them saying to call them back to discuss the blood work results. I really hope this isn't a bad sign. If the results were not good, I have to go...

I've found our church home for my little family! I was baptized at Prestonwood Baptist Church in Plano and it is my favorite church. I also have decided that Adam and I will be going on Sundays once his immune system has been built up to a healthy point. There are a few things I love about my church. They have an amazing children's wing. Their nursery is nice, and they have a very organized pager system that I like. They also have a curriculum starting from day one. I love this. I'm a big believer that babies should be stimulated, so I'm very happy about their "lessons." I bet they are adorable. They offer many opportunities for new mothers. They have a nursing mother's room, which is awesome, where you can watch the service and be with your baby while nursing. Also, they have a first time new mommies class where you can get together and share support. And lastly, I love the tools given to parents to work with their children during the week to reflect and ...

SO excited!!!!

Last Thursday, I had my first parenting class! It was the Newborn Basic Care class. I loved it. OF COURSE I was the *ONLY* one there without a husband and by myself, and that wasn't too fun, but I need to be the best mommy I can be, so I went anyway and made the best of it. I'm proud of myself for being my best, even when it's uncomfortable. I know my son deserves that. We had to do the awkward "Hi, I'm __________, we are due __________ and something great about us is _____________." So awkward. You'd think teachers would figure out that nobody really likes doing that. Ha, oh well. Those who know me know that I *LOVE* to learn new things. Trying something new, that I've never done before, and learning and practicing the craft has always been really stimulating to me. Having this trait, I naturally love being a student. And I loved this class. We talked about everything, from what happens after birth, to the post partum stay, to newborn bathing, feedi...

Well, it looks like I've found someone to watch Adam! I have a friend, a parent of one of my students, actually, that I'm really close to. Their family is wonderful and their daughter, who is now in middle school, is going to watch Adam at my school during my programs, as an introductory babysitting trial. I adore her, the family is wonderful, and they have been there for me and have been so supportive through my journey. Well, one day I was texting with the mom and explaining how hard the daycare situation had been for me, and she suggested her mother. She feels like I do and had a really hard time with the idea of daycare, so she only trusted her mother to watch her children when she was at work. She also was a single mom and raised her daughter by herself for 12 years so she understands my situation. I asked a little bit about her mom. She says that she does speak broken English, but that she lights up around children and has raised many as she has multiple children. App...

This past Monday, I had my doctor visit. This was comprised of a visit with my OB and then going up a floor for my monthly ultrasound to measure and see growth and view any problems, if any. Great news, I only gained two pounds this month. Once I saw that he was growing so fast, I wanted to slow it down a little by consuming less calories. It worked! He went from the 97th percentile to 76th. Also, I asked where he is measuring big, and this was pretty funny. The sonogram lady was like, "Every part of his body is measuring average. I don't understand, nothing is measuring big. Let's look at the lower part of his body." Then she was like, "Oh wow! Look at that femur bone! It's his legs. They are REALLY long." HAHA. This made me laugh. Looks like he got dad's side and the Burns side of height. I'm glad, I was hoping he was going to be tall. So he's average everywhere, except the legs which is why he's weighing a little more because he'...

Well, Adam will not need clothes until he's about 1 year old. My sweet friend from work dropped off  a huge box of baby clothes that she was getting rid of. I sorted everything and couldn't believe how cute the stuff is. She has awesome taste! Another thing I loved is that the clothes were seasonally appropriate. The little stuff for summer, bigger stuff in winter. Awesome. And there are even adorable holiday clothes that I cannot WAIT to put him in! He's all set! I'm so grateful for such wonderfully giving friends!! This plus what I already have, I think I counted 50 sleepers, 30 knit caps, 4 pairs of shoes, 5 coats, 40 onesies and the list keeps going! Haha he's about to have more than I do and he's not even born yet!!

I took my second daycare visit and it didn't go well.  This is the more expensive one that is close to my school.  Their website is very impressive and it's a really nice,  new and big facility so I had high hopes.  When I pulled up,  it looked pretty,  surrounded by trees.  When I came in,  they gave me a tour and showed me the infant room.  This was okay.  There was a baby in a swing,  two on the floor,  one in a bouncer and one asleep.  I didn't like that when I walked in,  the teacher wasn't with them.  She was across the room. It might have been timing because being a teacher myself,  I know that when someone randomly walks in and I'm sitting at my desk,  it doesn't mean I didn't just teach an amazing lesson and the person came in right after.  So I tried to keep an open mind.  I know their job is probably exhausting but I couldn't help but feel a little sad at these babies tending t...

Well I'm officially 26 weeks pregnant! Holy moly it's flying!! Two more weeks until I'm in my 3rd trimester. Now THAT'S hard to believe!!! Mom and I sat down with the budget and determined that I am indeed broke, so Adam and I will probably move in with her in a year. He will be 9 months old. Cute. So, it's funny how your mind changes once you are in the process of becoming a parent. I've always been big on having MY stuff, with MY feel and décor, etc. Well now, as much as the situation isn't ideal to be living with Mom, all I care about is making sure that he's taken care of with a full tummy and lots of love. And living with her, I won't be as stressed and will have more time and money to do fun things with him. I want him to be able to play sports and do fun things and this way it can happen! Because of this, I'm actually relieved. I can get us on our feet and then start up real savings for him as I continue to apply for Assistant Principal ...

So I have learned this Mother's Day that this day brings up a lot of different emotions. Most think of their mothers, and spend the day thinking about how grateful they are. But that's not everyone's story. While most are grateful for their mothers, Many want to be mothers and have today as a set reminder that they aren't. And others have Mothers in heaven and are unable to be with them. It just makes me sad... I did not have an easy road with fertility. It seems short in the big picture, but it certainly did not feel that way going through it. I tried getting pregnant two times before I went to a doctor. Then I tried 4 times with a doctor, perfect timing and eggs and still nothing. I was put on drugs and my emotions were pushed and pulled from hormones and I followed the same cycle of HOPE, FEAR, DISSAPOINTMENT, and TEARS. Until the 5th time, JOY! It took me about 7 months total to get pregnant. And about $12,000. I am crazy regular and ovulated every month of my lif...

The last two weeks have been decent at work and I'm happy about that. Last week was great, very calm and my kiddos were good. Holla! This week it was a little more crazy but we had field day so things were shaken up a bit and I liked doing something different. Today my friend Gwen came up with her son Hayes and we hung out all day. It was awesome, I've missed her and he is cute as can be. On the pregnancy front, I've been eating pretty healthy this week, well not so much today but Monday-Thursday was really good. I hope it shows on the scale at the doctor this month. He's not too happy that I'm gaining more than my allotted 10 lbs. Some happy things coming up! Charlotte just had her birthday and Christina's is coming up this weekend! We won't celebrate until next weekend but it will be fun being able to be with her. Other news...4 more weeks of school! Yeah! WOOP! WHAT?! YAY!!! Dude, I cannot wait to be away from that place for 10 whole weeks, then ...