Our Unexpected Beautiful Life

The past two days have been a nightmare. I swear, it really is amazing to me how awful things get towards the end of a school year. The kids decide that they don't need to follow rules, they constantly fight, and the teachers are so fed up that they are unkind to each other, and it's SO. ANNOYING! I get so sick of it! The past two days have been awful. I've sent about 7 kids to the office, and have had 3 teachers upset. It's just crazy to me, and very unpleasant. I cannot wait until I have this child and this job will not be my life. When I can come home to something positive and work will be in the background instead of me stewing on it at night. I am SO ready. Tonight I had a happy hour (without the drinks, of course) with two friends from work. At least I work with some great people. That much I CAN say. I miss my dog!!! She's at my mom's tonight and I really could use some Kaci hugs! :( Let's hope TOMORROW is the first good day of the week! UGH!!!!...

Great news! I feel like me again!!! I now have energy and am so productive! I am ready to get back in the gym and eat super healthy to not gain too much this trimester! YAY it feels so good to feel good again! It's been awhile!!! The cons to the second trimester: backaches and bad heartburn. OUCH. But at least I can get stuff done when I'm hurting lol. Last week, I had a few days of anxiety. I've been feeling very nervous about labor, and getting all of the stuff I need. I've started this cycle where if I buy anything, I'm not saving it and I'm falling short of where I want to be, savings wise. This is getting very stressful. I need to stop buying and just hope that I get enough from showers. Ahh scary! And the labor, well there's nothing I can do about it. I just keep hearing horror stories and it makes me very scared. I also hate the thought of my baby being in pain, since birth is also painful for the baby. BUT, I know God allowed us to survive it so I ...

I'm currently 13 weeks and into the first week of the 2nd trimester. Woop! I'm feeling okay and I "think" I could be getting a tiny bit of energy back. I notice that about every 3-4 days, I am productive. That's way more than I can say about the first trimester. I keep hearing that it's a very slow progression of change so I'm happy to have something. My doctor was unable to find the heartbeat at my most recent appointment. It was pretty scary at first but I was put to ease when I saw my little baby on the sonogram with it's little heart just truckin' away! I can't believe how much bigger it's gotten! It's about 3 inches long this week. Very cool! I'm really trying to make some progress on the baby's room. This weekend, my brother is going to take a load of my stuff to my mom's attic so I can make room for more baby stuff. I also bought my favorite mommy quote in a decal to put on the wall, and I bought a toy net to hang...

Today was a fantastic day! My friend Jeana and I went to Kid to Kid in Wylie because they were having a sale of all marked down clothes and shoes for $1.00! It was awesome!!! I got 5 neutral adorable sleepers, and 2 baby dvd's all for 12$ It was SO fun! I think I'm going to like this whole baby shopping thing! It's so wonderful having such supportive friends in my life. I'm so blessed!

Severe fatigue has really been setting in this week. It's been SO bad, almost to the point of me having a hard time focusing. I've been doing a lot of reading about this in my pregnancy books and they say it's really bad in the first and third trimesters and then lifts in the second. Today I did something that always horrified me! In the books the authors always say, "And take a nap at work and let your employer know why." I'm like WHAT?! I can't SLEEP at work!! Well today, I did it! Yep, that's right! I rolled my huge comfy sweater into a ball and slept a whole 45 min during my off period. It really does work! I will admit though that I am NOT telling my boss! And I am going to try not to make that a habit haha. It was so funny I was explaining to my work bestie that I didn't make copies because I was asleep. She's like, "What?" HAHAHA! It's just amazing that something you can't feel can take SO much out of you! I guess I...

You know, it's funny how a pregnancy lasts an entire 9 months but how fast it flies! I'm almost out of my first trimester and I'm already overwhelmed with all of the stuff I have to do! The good news...I did SOMETHING today! Yeah!!! I took out all my clothes of the baby's closet and the only thing hanging in there now are 3 adorable sleepers! They are so short and adorable. I love it! Anyway, there is still crap everywhere else but it was nice to see SOMETHING change. I also arranged a storage systems for blankets, wipes, burp cloths, and swaddle blankets. I think it's best to categorize it...like a diapering station, feeding station, etc. I'm so proud of my two shelves organized! Haha. I can't wait until it comes together. Although my job has been unbelievably hard and I've been kind of sad about the loss of some friendships, I'm starting to feel better about things. I'm reconnecting with an old friend and she gave me some really good advice a...

Today was the first time being pregnant has been hard.  I got 9 glorious hours of sleep last night and I woke up with such severe fatigue that I was scared to drive.  Then all morning,  I kept nodding off until kids came in.  I'm so exhausted and am less sharp,  more forgetful and very emotional because of all the hormones. Things need to be done at work that I shouldn't do when I'm pregnant, aka top of ladders to hang things, and I feel like a slacker when they aren't getting done.  I'm also very sad that some of my friends aren't there for me when I need them. That's been really hard on me,  too.  It's so hurtful when someone you care about  chooses to abandon you.  It's very sad.  I'm just ready for a good day full of energy.  Hopefully soon...

Well baby and I are doing just fine! I still feel pretty good, with the exception of hot flashes from this morning and feeling very faint. I'm still really tired with no energy, but hopefully I only have a couple more weeks of that before I get my second wind. I can't believe I'm already 11 weeks. In a couple weeks, I'll be out of my first trimester! Crazy! It's going so fast!! I have so much to do!!! I've decided to have a gender reveal dinner with all my closest friends. I'm really excited about it. Baby is now the size of a lime! Yay! It's also nearly fully formed, with just growing and complete development of the existing organs. And something that's really cool to me, it's now able to kick and open and close it's fists. So cute! It's probably having a party in there! One thing that is so crazy to me is that how I can be growing a human the size of a lime and I feel NOTHING! You think I would! The books all say the same thing,...