Today Was Hard

Today was the first time being pregnant has been hard.  I got 9 glorious hours of sleep last night and I woke up with such severe fatigue that I was scared to drive.  Then all morning,  I kept nodding off until kids came in.  I'm so exhausted and am less sharp,  more forgetful and very emotional because of all the hormones. Things need to be done at work that I shouldn't do when I'm pregnant, aka top of ladders to hang things, and I feel like a slacker when they aren't getting done.  I'm also very sad that some of my friends aren't there for me when I need them. That's been really hard on me,  too.  It's so hurtful when someone you care about  chooses to abandon you.  It's very sad.  I'm just ready for a good day full of energy.  Hopefully soon...

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