Our Unexpected Beautiful Life

Tonight I had a very defeating moment. So far during this pregnancy, I've felt mostly joy, some anxiety, but never an inability to provide, until tonight. I've been dreading the crib. Mostly because it's an important basic necessity, a place for my child to sleep, and if I can't do THAT, then I've failed. In my mind, I thought I am smart enough to put it together. But when it came time to do it, I couldn't figure it out. It was given to me by a friend and she just took apart certain parts so we could transport it. Now it is in pieces, but not like the instructions pieces. So it threw me off. I tried everything, got nowhere. And then I just couldn't hold back the tears. I felt like I couldn't provide for my baby and I sobbed uncontrollably for about 30 minutes. I just hate asking for help. I usually am self-sufficient and I know people really don't want to come do labor for you. So anyway, it was just a hard moment. One of many I'm sure to have as...

Now that baby has developed hearing and can now hear my voice, I recorded my favorite lullaby on my phone voice recorder and turned it up full volume and played it to my belly tonight. I am going to make this a daily ritual and by the time baby is here, maybe he will recognize it! Can't wait!! Yes I said he, I think it's a boy! :0)

Things are going beautifully! The second trimester has been great! I haven't been as tired and just feel better. I have had pretty bad heartburn though which is NOT fun and my back has been killing me. I think it could be my Fibro but I'm sure pregnancy isn't helping. I've been sore and achy but I'm still happy as a clam! I've been brainstorming ideas on the nursery and I find out what I'm having in two weeks. YAY!! Can't wait to know until I know if I'm having a little Adam or a little Rebecca. The names I have picked out are: Adam Christopher Jones Rebecca Laelyn Jones I can't wait!!