Our Unexpected Beautiful Life

On August 11th, 2014, I woke up at 5:30am to get a good breakfast in to try to avoid the starving and thirst that I knew was coming that day. I was pretty tired, nervous and irritable because of the fear going in. Of surgery, of Adam being safe, of me recovering, the UNKNOWN in general. I finished packing, went over to my mom's house and hung out for a little while to pass the time before we had to leave for the hospital. Here is the a picture of me before we left the hospital. I was 38 weeks exactly and ready for my boy to come out! I admit I was very cranky because internally I was scared to death. My poor mom had to put up with my bitchy mood on the way to the hospital. Once we got to the hospital, they took me back and took me to a pre-op room that would later become my recovery room. Here is a pic of me before I went in before the C-Section. And here is me and my wonderful doctor. I admit I'm pretty much in love with him. Oh if only he wasn't married!! They ...

I was doing fine all day. I was incredibly calm as my extreme fatigue has been taking over, and then tonight, all at once, the emotion of him coming hit me and I sobbed uncontrollably for about 15 minutes. Hormones are no joke. I simply cannot even fathom the happiness that is coming tomorrow. It's just such an insurmountable rush of emotion. Please pray for a strong, healthy, happy baby boy to be placed in my arms tomorrow. Please pray for a manageable recovery for me as I want to be able to take care of my son and ensure him security as he transitions to a new world.  From woman to mother....biggest day of my life, here I come! 

Tonight I had my last night out before becoming a mama and I spent it with my two closest friends, Christina and Jeana. Tonight was really special for me. I know I'm seriously hormonal and over emotional, but when I think about how lucky I am to have them, it just makes me want to cry! You have people in your life that are nice, offer to help, are polite, but then you have people in your life that are just WITH you, ya know? I am so blessed. Tonight was comprised of lots and lots of laughing. It really is like therapy being around those two. With them and my mom by my side, I honestly feel like I can do anything. I have been through SO many friendships in my life, and it's just amazing how you grow up, you finally figure out what's good for you and all of the sudden the drama disappears and you are just happy! So yeah, my friends are wonderful and I'm in a good place tonight. I ended up buying Adam's birthday cupcake today and I cannot WAIT to sing to him! It ...

Today I was SO tired, we're talking make myself get out bed after three hours tired. So random! I got pretty much nothing accomplished today so I need to be really productive the next two days.  Tonight I spent some quality time with Kaci and had a talk with her about how she's about to get a brother and she needs to help me protect him. I don't think she understood as she was instantly distracted by a squirrel, but I'd like to think she will transition well. She's an exceptionally sweet dog so I'm having high hopes! I can't wait to see them together.  I got a call today from the electronic doctor appointment lady saying, "HELLO! You have an appointment on August 11th at 3:00!" Yep, sure do! I'm having a baby! Yay!!! But thanks for the reminder! :0) I'm getting excited! And only two more days of heartburn! Woohoo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yesterday, I had my final prenatal doctor's appointments with this pregnancy. It was actually quite emotional, I was surprised. I had my sonogram first and everything looked awesome. He is predicted to be 7 and a half pounds at birth and in the 59th percentile. Perfect! They did tell me to expect his legs to be up by his ears because of his positioning. I knew this was a possibility since he is frank breech, but it does sound like he will be coming out with his legs looking unnatural. I am mentally preparing for this and I am going to be VERY protective of any pictures taken of him in this position. I want to make sure his feet are covered, he will NOT be on display. I'm a little unsure of how baby boy will be able to wear his clothes with his feet still up but hopefully they will be down enough by the time we leave the hospital that it will be okay. I'm very curious to see if they will give him any assistance with this or if they will just let them go down on their own. Wh...

Tonight was our SMC quarterly dinner. First of all, I have to say that this group is comprised of wonderful ladies and I am *SO* lucky to have this fantastic support. It's so nice to be around people who understand each other's mindsets and to discuss different journeys in life. One of the fantastic ladies made me some frozen meals, I'm so excited! She made mini omelettes, chicken chimichangas, and chicken tortilla soup. It just feels so good to be taken care of and to see how sweet people can be. I'm very blessed. I admit I'm nervous about surgery, but I'm getting SO excited about meeting Adam. I cannot wait to hold and snuggle him and hear his little baby noises. He is never going to have enough mommy kisses! I'm excited about him meeting all of the people that are so excited to meet and love him. I cannot even imagine the love that will fill my heart the second I lay eyes on him. My grandma called me yesterday just to check on me and tell me that sh...