Infertility
So I have learned this Mother's Day that this day brings up a lot of different emotions. Most think of their mothers, and spend the day thinking about how grateful they are. But that's not everyone's story. While most are grateful for their mothers, Many want to be mothers and have today as a set reminder that they aren't. And others have Mothers in heaven and are unable to be with them. It just makes me sad...
I did not have an easy road with fertility. It seems short in the big picture, but it certainly did not feel that way going through it. I tried getting pregnant two times before I went to a doctor. Then I tried 4 times with a doctor, perfect timing and eggs and still nothing. I was put on drugs and my emotions were pushed and pulled from hormones and I followed the same cycle of HOPE, FEAR, DISSAPOINTMENT, and TEARS. Until the 5th time, JOY! It took me about 7 months total to get pregnant. And about $12,000. I am crazy regular and ovulated every month of my life. I was SHOCKED and devastated when I figured out that it was not going to "just happen" for me. During that infertile time, I cried ALL THE TIME and became very depressed. Because I was so depressed, I gained a lot of weight and pretty much assumed I was broken. I have the utmost respect for that time in my life because it taught me to be grateful for a pregnancy. I hear all the time, "My husband looks at me and I get pregnant." Wow really? How great for you! *SARCASM* I don't think some people realize how lucky they are when it happens so quickly for them. Should it be that easy? Would it mean as much if it was?
Because I went through it for a brief period of my life, and know what those 7 months of hell felt like, I want to say DON'T GIVE UP to those want-to-be mommies. If I could fix everyone to be fertile I would! I just hate that some people have to go through so much heartache. But with that still, have faith! The road can be long and hard, but once you get that moment of joy, it is ALL worth it. And to those who get pregnant easily, be sensitive. Not everyone is as fortunate.
I know of about three of my friends that are having a hard time being around me pregnant. It really hurt me at first, but all I can do is be the friend they deserve and hope that they don't shut me out. Some already have, and that's fine, but I'm a good friend and plan to be there for my friends no matter what the circumstance. I just hope that my presence is not a negative for them. I know how hard it can be.
SO! Happy Mother's Day to want-to be mommies, Mommies, Mommies to be, and Mommies of FUR babies! This day is for EVERYONE so make sure you include them!
I did not have an easy road with fertility. It seems short in the big picture, but it certainly did not feel that way going through it. I tried getting pregnant two times before I went to a doctor. Then I tried 4 times with a doctor, perfect timing and eggs and still nothing. I was put on drugs and my emotions were pushed and pulled from hormones and I followed the same cycle of HOPE, FEAR, DISSAPOINTMENT, and TEARS. Until the 5th time, JOY! It took me about 7 months total to get pregnant. And about $12,000. I am crazy regular and ovulated every month of my life. I was SHOCKED and devastated when I figured out that it was not going to "just happen" for me. During that infertile time, I cried ALL THE TIME and became very depressed. Because I was so depressed, I gained a lot of weight and pretty much assumed I was broken. I have the utmost respect for that time in my life because it taught me to be grateful for a pregnancy. I hear all the time, "My husband looks at me and I get pregnant." Wow really? How great for you! *SARCASM* I don't think some people realize how lucky they are when it happens so quickly for them. Should it be that easy? Would it mean as much if it was?
Because I went through it for a brief period of my life, and know what those 7 months of hell felt like, I want to say DON'T GIVE UP to those want-to-be mommies. If I could fix everyone to be fertile I would! I just hate that some people have to go through so much heartache. But with that still, have faith! The road can be long and hard, but once you get that moment of joy, it is ALL worth it. And to those who get pregnant easily, be sensitive. Not everyone is as fortunate.
I know of about three of my friends that are having a hard time being around me pregnant. It really hurt me at first, but all I can do is be the friend they deserve and hope that they don't shut me out. Some already have, and that's fine, but I'm a good friend and plan to be there for my friends no matter what the circumstance. I just hope that my presence is not a negative for them. I know how hard it can be.
SO! Happy Mother's Day to want-to be mommies, Mommies, Mommies to be, and Mommies of FUR babies! This day is for EVERYONE so make sure you include them!
Thank you for posting this.
ReplyDeleteAww. I love this post. :) You're a good friend and have a great heart. <3 you!
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