Crappy Day Of Pain
Today was one of the hardest days of my pregnancy, if not the hardest. It all started a few days ago. I noticed this really heavy pressure in my lower abdomen, like uncomfortably heavy pressure. At first I thought maybe Adam was just growing or maybe dropped head down, but it was uncomfortable and I felt like I had to go to the bathroom about every 15 minutes. That made me cranky, but it was more annoying than unbearable.
Then yesterday I noticed a more serious soreness in my woman area. It was even more uncomfortable and about a moderate level of pain. Well, this morning it was full blown excruciating. We're talking, hurts to walk, hurts to sit, awful awful pain.
I called my doctor first thing this morning and they told me they could fit me in at 2:30 this afternoon so I left work at 2:00 and they got me right in. And then the second round of awful started...
I was laying on my back waiting for the doctor because my back has been hurting from all the work labor this week. Well, when I sat up when he came in, I got this huge rush of stabbing pain in my lower back. It was another one of those severe back spasms. I had another one at that same doctor's office, from that same sitting up, about 6 months ago. This time, I started seeing all white, had severe nausea, and I was explaining what was happening. The pain continued and he wanted me to lie down but I couldn't, my back paralyzed me when I was in that state. With me wailing, he finally got me on my back, said all the color had gone out of my face and screamed to the nurse, "She's passing out! Get her some water and a cold cloth". He let me lay there with water and turned off the lights for about 15 minutes and I immediately started feeling better. Once I felt better, he came back in and we got started. Getting me back up was a challenge as the spasm pain diminishes slowly so I was still in a lot of pain, just not passing out.
Because of the passing out, he wanted to hear the baby's heartbeat. It was strong and perfect like always so that's great. This was the one moment of my day that I loved. I could listen to his sweet heartbeat all day. Anyway...
I told my doctor my situation and he did the exam. Turns out I have a varicose vein in the most PAINFUL place a woman can have them. It's just awful. He told me that I'm swollen, and that I need to do warm soaks and he ordered me prescription cream.
PHEW, good, nothing too serious. But EXTREMELY painful. I did some research and it's not looking like a good situation. It's caused by pregnancy, and when it's swollen, it doesn't look like there's much you can do except try to keep the swelling down. It didn't look like it goes away. This depresses me. I am *SO* able to deal with the normal pregnancy stuff, but with this I can hardly walk. I can't imagine 3 more months of hardly walking. I'm going to continue to read material and maybe I will find relief soon. I saw there was this granny gurdle thing that is supposed to help, but clearly that will be a last resort as it is the most awkward remedy. Seriously.
And to top off the awful day, I go to pick up my prescription cream? They said it was $240.00. I had them re-check that and they said with my insurance it's 240 bucks and without insurance it's over $700. Um, what? It's a TINY bottle of cream. I normally would never spend that kind of money on that but I'm desperate because I'm in so much pain so I went ahead and did it. So far it is not working. I will not cry again, I will not cry again.
Today was just a low point for me. Constant pain makes me really nauseous and not being able to stand or sit comfortably is so hard. And to think there may not be an end in sight for 3 months makes me very anxious. This afternoon, I dropped something and I tried to bend down to get it, and I was dealing with severe back pain, severe woman part pain, and a pregnant belly that is hard to bend. I just left it on the floor and walked away crying. There just was no point in trying to pick it up.
My back pain has dwindled to the usual dull soreness now. I'm always amazed at how quickly I recover from those, considering 4 hrs ago I felt paralyzed. I wonder what causes those?
So yeah, it's been a crappy day full of different varieties of pain. Luckily Christina will be at my work tomorrow helping me with some labor stuff and I'm glad we arranged that because it turns out I'm going to really need her. I'm grateful for good hearted people.
Prayers for me, please! Not sure how much more of this pain I can take.
Then yesterday I noticed a more serious soreness in my woman area. It was even more uncomfortable and about a moderate level of pain. Well, this morning it was full blown excruciating. We're talking, hurts to walk, hurts to sit, awful awful pain.
I called my doctor first thing this morning and they told me they could fit me in at 2:30 this afternoon so I left work at 2:00 and they got me right in. And then the second round of awful started...
I was laying on my back waiting for the doctor because my back has been hurting from all the work labor this week. Well, when I sat up when he came in, I got this huge rush of stabbing pain in my lower back. It was another one of those severe back spasms. I had another one at that same doctor's office, from that same sitting up, about 6 months ago. This time, I started seeing all white, had severe nausea, and I was explaining what was happening. The pain continued and he wanted me to lie down but I couldn't, my back paralyzed me when I was in that state. With me wailing, he finally got me on my back, said all the color had gone out of my face and screamed to the nurse, "She's passing out! Get her some water and a cold cloth". He let me lay there with water and turned off the lights for about 15 minutes and I immediately started feeling better. Once I felt better, he came back in and we got started. Getting me back up was a challenge as the spasm pain diminishes slowly so I was still in a lot of pain, just not passing out.
Because of the passing out, he wanted to hear the baby's heartbeat. It was strong and perfect like always so that's great. This was the one moment of my day that I loved. I could listen to his sweet heartbeat all day. Anyway...
I told my doctor my situation and he did the exam. Turns out I have a varicose vein in the most PAINFUL place a woman can have them. It's just awful. He told me that I'm swollen, and that I need to do warm soaks and he ordered me prescription cream.
PHEW, good, nothing too serious. But EXTREMELY painful. I did some research and it's not looking like a good situation. It's caused by pregnancy, and when it's swollen, it doesn't look like there's much you can do except try to keep the swelling down. It didn't look like it goes away. This depresses me. I am *SO* able to deal with the normal pregnancy stuff, but with this I can hardly walk. I can't imagine 3 more months of hardly walking. I'm going to continue to read material and maybe I will find relief soon. I saw there was this granny gurdle thing that is supposed to help, but clearly that will be a last resort as it is the most awkward remedy. Seriously.
And to top off the awful day, I go to pick up my prescription cream? They said it was $240.00. I had them re-check that and they said with my insurance it's 240 bucks and without insurance it's over $700. Um, what? It's a TINY bottle of cream. I normally would never spend that kind of money on that but I'm desperate because I'm in so much pain so I went ahead and did it. So far it is not working. I will not cry again, I will not cry again.
Today was just a low point for me. Constant pain makes me really nauseous and not being able to stand or sit comfortably is so hard. And to think there may not be an end in sight for 3 months makes me very anxious. This afternoon, I dropped something and I tried to bend down to get it, and I was dealing with severe back pain, severe woman part pain, and a pregnant belly that is hard to bend. I just left it on the floor and walked away crying. There just was no point in trying to pick it up.
My back pain has dwindled to the usual dull soreness now. I'm always amazed at how quickly I recover from those, considering 4 hrs ago I felt paralyzed. I wonder what causes those?
So yeah, it's been a crappy day full of different varieties of pain. Luckily Christina will be at my work tomorrow helping me with some labor stuff and I'm glad we arranged that because it turns out I'm going to really need her. I'm grateful for good hearted people.
Prayers for me, please! Not sure how much more of this pain I can take.
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