Evening Out

I finally evened out from meds. I had a rough time getting off the progesterone as I was very depressed for three days. But then it lifted and I felt like me again for the first time in 3 weeks! Woop! 

While feeling relieved that I wasn't an emotional mess, things have been hard. I'm working three jobs to try to make more money, and I am exhausted. Work has been stressful, they are making so many changes and everyone seems so unhappy. Myself included. And then you add this process into the mix and I've realized that this is probably going to be the hardest year of my life. I've already started the countdown to Thanksgiving break.

One thing I struggle with is inner peace. I get so upset about things. When people treat me bad, when I feel lonely or sad, when I'm unhappy with my job, when things don't turn out the way I want them to be. I need to learn to let things be. I wouldn't say that I believe in the whole "things happen for a reason" bit that everyone likes to tell me, I think sometimes life just sucks. But I must continue to surround myself with sweet and positive people and push through each day. I really do have amazing people in my life. I must lean on them. 

One thing that IS exciting! I start my process again tomorrow! YAY! I have my sonogram tomorrow to measure my baby egg and predict a day for the next two IUI's. My guess is that they will be later this week! I'm excited to see my possible future bundle of joy tomorrow on the big screen! I REALLY hope this one takes! *PRAYING*

So, the good news...I only work a half day tomorrow. WOOP! The not so great news...I'm about to get on psycho meds again! Friends, enjoy this Lindsey while it lasts! 

A special thank you to Christina, Carrie, Mom and Aunt Betty for being so wonderful. I love you guys!!! 








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  1. UnknownSeptember 10, 2013 at 8:04 AM

    I feel you, friend. I struggle with being okay with where I am in life too... with the inner peace, as you say. I found this book online last night, it's called Being Okay With Where You Are by Stacey Thacker. I'm going to give it a try. Maybe you should too. :o) Maybe it'll help!

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