And Then There Is Hope

Today was a drastic 180 from yesterday! I had a great morning and I sought off to my day 12 sonogram appointment. I was a little apprehensive at first because I was not seeing my normal doctor, I was seeing someone in her practice because she was out of the office today. It ended up working out beautifully! I like my normal doctor okay, I know she's a great doctor and I can tell she's a badass, but she wasn't very informative. It seems like I left every visit with a lot of questions. She was also very serious and it made me tense. Today, I walk in and the nurses were great and when the guy doctor came in, the first thing he asked was, "How are you feeling about the first failed attempt?" What?! He wants to talk about my feelings? Awesome! I told him I was devastated and that it was really hard on me, but that I really want to try again. He said we need to start looking at this as a 6 month process, that he believes that in 6 months, he will get me pregnant. (Yeah!) He then said he understands what I'm going through because he's not just a doctor, he's a patient. Then he showed me a picture of his twin baby boys. He got his little boys via IUI so he understands! I can also tell he's passionate about wanting to make it work. That instantly comforted me. Then came the awkward "Ok put your feet in the stirrups and we'll take a look" statement. I instantly gave the "Yeah, this couldn't get more awkward" comment and he says back, "Yeah, how do you think it is for ME?" HA! I instantly busted up and the tension was broken. I immediately felt at ease. I love funny guys and I knew I would stick with him after that. 

We did the sonogram and he was VERY gentle and I was happy to have no pain with this one. Then, he was happy to report a mature follicle is ready to release in a couple of days so we scheduled IUI #1 on Thursday and IUI #2 on Friday! YAY!! 

One thing I am doing that I didn't do with the last try is getting a trigger shot. This triggers me to ovulate which allows us to time it to where the sperm and egg will meet! We assumed it did last time but I think I'm more comfortable knowing it's for sure going to happen with the shot. 

So yeah, this process is indeed an emotional roller coaster but today was a high. It really is amazing to me that devastation can be replaced with newfound hope in just a couple of weeks! I really do believe I'm going to get pregnant this year and with that in my mind, I can't help but smile...

Comments

  1. UnknownSeptember 11, 2013 at 8:20 AM

    Ekk! That's excited. Scary, but exciting!! Imagine how much your life is going to change. :-)

    ReplyDelete

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

Infertility

So I have learned this Mother's Day that this day brings up a lot of different emotions. Most think of their mothers, and spend the day thinking about how grateful they are. But that's not everyone's story. While most are grateful for their mothers, Many want to be mothers and have today as a set reminder that they aren't. And others have Mothers in heaven and are unable to be with them. It just makes me sad... I did not have an easy road with fertility. It seems short in the big picture, but it certainly did not feel that way going through it. I tried getting pregnant two times before I went to a doctor. Then I tried 4 times with a doctor, perfect timing and eggs and still nothing. I was put on drugs and my emotions were pushed and pulled from hormones and I followed the same cycle of HOPE, FEAR, DISSAPOINTMENT, and TEARS. Until the 5th time, JOY! It took me about 7 months total to get pregnant. And about $12,000. I am crazy regular and ovulated every month of my lif...
Read more

Seeing The Heartbeat

This past Monday was a special day. I got to see my baby's heartbeat for the first time. Also, this appointment was the first time I'd seen my doctor since I'd found out I was pregnant. Backstory: we've tried for 5 months to get me pregnant, altering meds, doing double procedures, the whole nine yards. And my doctor is WONDERFUL, I absolutely adore him. He's hilarious, SO sweet to me and we have bonded through the 5 months of me seeing him all the time about my failed pregnancy attempts. Well, fast forward to heart beat day he asked me if I wanted an ultrasound and I said yes! He turns the screen towards him, I guess to not upset me if he doesn't see anything and he immediately says in his adorable excited voice, "I see a baby and a heartbeat!" YAY!! Then he proceeds with, "but before I show you, I need to look at your ovaries, because I care." Then he turned the screen to me, and before my eyes stood a blurb of cuteness with a visual bulging...
Read more

Adam's First Party

Today, I got an invitation to an SMC pool party on September 13th. I was thinking to myself, "Oh fun, I love those!" And then it hit me! Adam will be here by then!!!! YAY!!!!!! He will be roughly 3 weeks old! Now I normally wouldn't be huge on exposing him to germs when he's so little, but because it's outside and fresh air, I think it could be good if I was recovering well. I would just need to make sure he is in the shade the entire time and that he doesn't get overheated.  I'm excited! His first party!! I was excited to RSVP with a +1. It made my day!!!!!
Read more