Welcome To The Land Of Psycho

Well, it's happened. I'm psycho. All week I've been keeping pretty busy and trying not to think about the big "test" coming up and then today on the way to work, I started thinking of a negative result and I started bawling. We're talking eye liner smearing, can't stop, "Wow what's wrong with her" kind of bawling. Then I was instantly fine. I later went about my day in a great mood, then got mad about something tonight then started uncontrollably crying because I feel bitchy, which is something I perceive as PMS coming on. It does feel like PMS in the sense that I'm over emotional and get mad at stuff I normally wouldn't. The great mood in between doesn't really fit, though. Usually when I PMS, I'm consistently a bitch. I am convinced it's PMS and gearing up for a negative pregnancy test. I cried A LOT tonight. It's just really hard. Some of my besties called me and were wonderful and were there for me. It's great to have great friends. I felt better after that. Then when one of the guys I'm talking to asks why I'm upset and I tell him and he responds with, "Aww want me to help?? ;)" I cried all over again while screaming YOU INSENSITIVE JERK!!! Yep, I'm psycho. We will see if I hear from him again.

I'm attributing some of the psycho to the sudden 200mg a day of the hormone Progesterone. I think I'm finally understanding why so many women I talked to said, "Ooooh yeah try not to get on Progesterone if you don't have to. It makes you crazy." I agree. 

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  1. UnknownAugust 28, 2013 at 8:35 AM

    It's hard not to be emotional when there are unknown factors (aka the two week wait) but keep your chin up friend! :o) You have an amazing support system, and now is the time to lean on them.

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  2. DarlaAugust 29, 2013 at 7:56 AM

    Thinking about you! Don't give up and mood swings are just going to be part of it for the long haul anyways! It's great that you are aware of the mood swings, sometimes it's hard to see it in yourself! Think positive!

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