Symptoms

My thoughts on if I'm pregnant change daily. Some days I feel off and think it might have worked. Other days I'm convinced it's all in my head and that it didn't. 

I've been feeling pretty emotional lately and not the PMS kind. I just feel easily weepy. The other day I got overcome with emotion about just how much I love my dog. Then every time I imagine a positive pregnancy test, there are tears streaming down my face. I can't tell if I just really love my dog and want a child or if it's exaggerated. I know I'm a pretty emotional girl so I'm not sure on that one. I also am aware that women can actually manifest symptoms. 

I also have been light headed a lot and for long periods of time. Real or not real? THAT is the question!

Also, I am excited to say that I am cramping! Yay! Why is this good, you ask? Because 8-10 days after fertilization, a woman may feel the implantation of the embryo implanting into the uterine wall. It usually last 1-2 days. I am on day 9 after fertilization if it occurred so the timing is just right if that's what it is. I'm trying not to get excited. It could be something else. 

So yeah, this two week wait is full of questioning and analyzing the body. What was that? Ooh what is this? I know I'm pregnant. I'm not pregnant. It's good times. 

I'd like to say that I'm ready for the big day on Thursday when I find out, but if I'm honest, I'm not sure I'm ready for devastating news. It will be very hard on me. The good thing about the two week wait is that you can still dream and hope that it worked and you're getting a baby! The day you find out you're not has to be awful. :( I went ahead and planned dinner with the bestie that night just in case I'm not doing well.

Please keep the prayers coming!!!!


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  1. UnknownAugust 24, 2013 at 9:05 PM

    ::hugs:: I'm here if you need me. I hope you won't need me because I hope it'll be AMAZING news - but if you do, I'm here!

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