A Good Day

Today was a really good day. I got an 8 hour stretch of sleep for the first time in about two months. I woke up so happy and I felt like a different person. Feeling rested for the first time in awhile made everything feel better; it was wonderful.

Once I got up, I went to an SMC gathering and it was great. What I love about this group is that it's a group full of women that are in similar situations as me, and they feel like family and take care of each other. I also love that no one is into gossip and it's just a great group of supportive women. Oh and did I mention that the kiddos are adorable? It's so fun to watch them grow up. I can't believe mine will be running around playing with them soon.

A friend of mine was sweet enough to give me a baby monitor (I've been having issues finding one that works) and a couple of toys so Adam has EVERYTHING now. It feels so awesome to provide for my baby boy and to be surrounded with such giving people. I also got some reassurance today about my concerns with C-sections. I was told that there really isn't much of a separation, which is a huge relief and it doesn't sound like it will affect my ability to nurse, either. YAY! So overall, I'm feeling much better about it.

I have to say, I'm starting to get REALLY excited about meeting Adam. And as worried as I've been, once I was able to get some sleep, I've started to feel a huge sense of peace about where I am. I am *SO* proud of myself for not settling for the jerks I've dated and for making smart decisions for a stable home for my son. We are going to have such a happy home and I can't wait to give him a beautiful life.

I've been through hell in my life, but I'm so happy to be experiencing such contentment right now. I honestly couldn't ask for anything more.

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